Day 3

Today was pretty good. Lost 3 lbs since yesterday. Had enough calories left to have dessert.....2 chocolate chip cookies and some peanut butter. Oh yea! It's the little things.

Bought an elliptical lt night from Nordic Track. Can't wait to get it!

not a bad day....

Wont say it was a good day; but it wasnt a bad day. :-) According to my calorie tracker I still have 396 calories left. Feeling a bit bleh after dinner. I made salmon patties and I baked them instead of frying them. They were a bit dry. Dry foods do not sit well with me after the weight loss surgery. Hopefully it will pass. Need to get more water today but until dinner settles nothing is passing these lips or it might make a u turn. Yuck!

Day 2....

So...my head says I'm starving. My stomach says I'm not. Sometimes it's hard to distinguish beteen the two and know which I should listen to. Doin good so far. Need to get my water in. Gotta stay strong. I can do this.

New year....new me

So my husband and I made resolutions to go on a diet this year. I'm so depressed over my weight. In 2006 I had weight loss surgery. I lost 230 lbs. Over the last year or so I've gained 100 lbs back. I'm sickened by it. I want to be back in my size 12s. Not 18/20s. I'm so jealous of those who can just eat what they want and not worry. Why does food have to taste so good?

I'm a stress eater as well. Lord knows over the past few years I have been through enough of that to gain way more than 100 lbs back. I try to be strong and not let it get to me; but I lose that battle everytime.

It depressed me even more that my husbands starting weight yesterday was less than mine. Only by a few pounds....but still. I'm not supposed to weigh more than him. And of course he got up this morning and lost 3 lbs. Ugh!

But, I'm determined to do this.  And I want to write about it. I'm logging my calories on MyFitnewsPal and hope to use this journal to get through the hard times and celebrate the good times.